Dorothy Needs our Support and Love

[dorothy]

everyone. thank you for thinking of me. This will be one of my last posts I believe. Things are not going well. I cannot breath. To make a coffe is a major event. I was going to make chicken chop suey for to-night but not sure I can manage that. We started the new chemo Alimtra on Nov . I GO tHUR FOR LAB WORK AND CONSULT WITH HIM on Thur.
The lab work will tell if i can tolerate more. i am pessimistic going by the way I feel. My breathing has never been worse. People don't get it. Geo goes downstairs and buries his head i the sand. Oh you'll be OK. If I sit and don't move things are great. My chesterfiedls will elevate feet and I sit there most o the time and read. i will go and make a coffee every now and then. I hope I can make it to Christmas so their day won't be ruined. Sue, I'm so glad you aare improving the way you are and Bobbi, you are sure in my prayers. John, you are an angel. Keep the candles burning. Linndie you are in my prayers also. All of you for that matter. Peter you continue to make that coffee and You asked. My kitty is Bailey and never leaves my side. He is on the floor at my feet howling as I type. It is 5:08 pm and black as can be outside. I think I'll skip the chop suey for now. I leave you with love.

[gwenwigley]

Dorothy,
I am so very sorry to hear that you are not doing so well as I am sure all of the family here will be when they read your message. As you know when reading from time to time, we think of you often. I am glad you have your Bailey with you, animals are a wonderful comfort aren't they?

As for Geo, is it?, sometimes people don't want to understand as it is too hard, to talk about. Easier for them to pretend nothing is wrong.

Is there anyone else there with you at the moment? Someone who you could talk to and maybe someone to make some food for you? I know you mentioned before that you had people who were willing to take you to appointments so could you call on one of them? People do want to help you know and would be distressed if you didn't ask.

Please know that you are in my prayers and thoughts and I am sending my special angel to watch over you. I am sure Jacki's is already there with you too.

Hugs
Gwen

[John]

Dorothy ; It is very good to see you .I want you to know that candles will be lighting your path .

[Deleted]

Dorothy My prayers are with you and all of us

[mary57]

Dorthy, my thoughts and prayerss are with you now and as you carry on your path. I'm hoping that someone will be there for you, for coffee, for a light meal, for conversation. I'm glad you have Bailly with you, cats are so sensitlve to us. Bless you.

[bobbioh]

good night all dorthy im praying for you.

[John]

Everyone ! Dorothy may the angels wrap their wings around you in comfort & warmth . Sleep well my friends The candles are lit .

[sask5]

My thoughts and prayers are with you Dorothy.

[susanny]

Dorothy, I wish I lived a lot closer to you so that I could come and keep you company, fix you some food or a hot drink, etc.... I know you don't like to tell us how bad you really feel as you don't want to depress us or anything, but you are one of us and it is important that you keep in touch as often as you can. We love you and hate to see you feeling this way, but can offer our support through prayers and well wishes. I don't know about you, but when I receive the prayers and words of encouragement from the forum it actually does make me feel better. Just knowing somebody cares.....

You are always on my prayer list and thought of daily. If you ever can think of anything you'd like that I can do for you, please let me know. My email is in my profile, and if you want to talk on the phone, just PM me and I'll send you back my phone number. I totally get what you are saying about how Geo is reacting to this because Mert is a lot like him in that way. Doesn't want to see the reality of the situation. Makes it hard, doesn't it?

Take care and stay calm,

Love, Sue

[Blossom/Jackie W.]

Dear Dear Dorothy......

I was so saddened to read your post.... I truly was. It struck quite a chord for me here on the Atlantic seaboard I assure you. I can sympathize and empathize on several levels.

It makes it so much harder if people around you don't want to talk about it when you're ready to. Quite often they simply don't know what to say or want to bring the issue up.

And sometimes they feel that YOU (the individual) don't want to talk about it so they wind up coming across as appearing to ignore the situation.

Most times (though there are the others like Gwen was mentioning) those close to you DO want to discuss how you're feeling/doing/what they can do to help you but; you have to almost lead them by the hand "into" a conversation.

Then; there are those who are just plain scared. Maybe that's Geo's mindset right now?

You didn't really say whether you've not been talking to anyone about your current situation, but that Geo seems blind so to speak which gives me the feeling it's company, as in someone to just be around right now. I know I sure would want it! Perhaps that's what you're feeling?

Maybe your friends could take turns spending some time with you daily; even if just for company in the house. Let them even prep a meal or two while they're there; it truly would make them feel useful and needed and Gwen's right... "they would be distressed if you didn't ask."

I wonder if it would be possible for your daughter to stay for a bit; maybe go to your appointment with you on Thursday even?

I know that right now you're hurting and struggling both physically and psychologically and I wish I could offer some suggestions that might help in some small way......

All I can offer is my love and my support and and perhaps the odd phone call....

Sarah's already there....




Dorothy; please know there's not a member here that's not with you there in some fashion....
We love you.

Jackie

[sallybrown]

Dear Dorothy - You are loved and supported by so many more people than you can imagine! Please know that prayers and loving thoughts will constantly be with you. Open hearts and ears are always here for you, dear friend.

[linndie2]

Dear Dorthy,

I care so much about you my friend, please don't ever give up. even though i know how hard it can be to go on at times. You are so very very loved and you matter to everyone here, i sent my number once and if i can do anything for you please let me know. I know that chemo can be so bad too and not good breathing, you have been trying so hard.

Love you, Linndie

[sandy07]

Wishing you a beautiful journey home.

[annabob]

I think of you often. You will always be in my thoughts and prayers.
Please Dorthy call a friend ,a neighbor or someone, even if its for a cup a tea. Dont be alone on this.

[Deborah]

Dorothy, you have contributed so much to this community through your caring and sharing. Hearts and thoughts and prayers go with you now.

Deborah

[valerie]

Dorothy, You are feeling really bad after the new chemo but don't give in, keep on being strong as you have been before, try to get a friend or neighbour to make some food for you as it's so important to eat and keep strong. We are all pulling for you, you're not alone . my thoughts are with you.

[aero63]

Dorothy
I am sending my thoughts out to you. I hope that strength finds you again.

[shelley]

Wherever your path may take you, may you walk gently and with strength. Often, the night seems so very long before the morning light eases our battles. Try to get some rest....you're in the hearts and prayers of many.

[Deleted]

Dorothy my thoughts and prayers Are with you .