feeling depressed

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I try to hold everyone up at bad times and yet, I am feeling like I am falling apart. I lost my sister to lung cancer the 20th of August and my son just went through bladder cancer and is now going back for more testing to see if it has reappeared. I went through 36 radiation treatments for lung cancer last May 2006 and thanking the Lord that I am still all clear.. I am having a hard time coping with all that has been going on the past couple years, surgery for bowel obstruction, two kidney stones that had to be lasered, four campacted vertabrae from osteo, my heart had to be stopped and restarted because of 180 beats a minute was too much and my co2 was registered at 180 and they told me I should never have lived through that. All with in the last couple of years everything that could happen to me seems to have happened. I even lost my great grandson who was seven years old after he had a heart trans plant when he was just six weeks old. I don't know how I can handle much more but don't know what to do. I am also severe copd and on o2 24/7 and many meds. Anyone with ideas please respond. Sunbeam

[larrynz]

You have made a good start by talking about it none of us here are qualified to offer advice but we can offer an ear, sounds to me like you have had more than your share of trouble.
The small amount of advice I can offer is not to worry, I know its not easy, but the more you think about it the more depressed you will become.
Do your best to think of Sunbeam thoughts, perhaps thats why you chose that name.

[cocojax]

sunbeam, the good thing is you have come through it all, like Larry said you are talking about it. We are here to listen. When I do feel depressed because of the COPD and other personal problems, I really try and think about the people in my life that I am so grateful for. Like Jackie says the cup is half full..it is really hard to think that way sometimes, but for me the cup is 1/2 full, I put the bad stuff behind me, and try not to hold everyone up, share the load, even if it is just talking in here, it does help, because you realize you are not the only one..I hope this helps a little.....

[cheryl]

Awwww Sunbeam, I wish I could come give you a hug. I'm so sorry for your loss. Talking does help and that's what we're here for. When you need to unburden, there is always someone here willing to listen. You have been through alot. Sometimes it seems that everything is dumped on us all at once. We have to pick ourselves up, dust ourselves off, and keep going.

[virginia]

Sunbeam, you have certianly gone though a lot.I know its hard to handle sometime. I'm so sorry that you are having all this piled on you. But with Copd , I have to take one day at the time and seek my inner strength And ask God to carry me through the day.
Losing a sibling is so heartbreaking also. I will be thinking of you ..sending hugs and prayers...Keep talking to us....Love Virginia

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Hang in there

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Thanks for the replies. They helped me make it through the day. It was just one of those days where I couldn't get a hold of myself. It did help to tell someone. I will try to think differently if it starts again, of happier times!! So nice to have someone I can come to when needed, Thanks a lot!!! Love, Sunbeam

[cocojax]

Take Care sunbeam, we will always be here for you... :-*This is such a great place to be, one good thing has come out of having COPD that we all have met and have made some good friendships...Some of us have joined a site called Cozykorner, we are learning Paint Shop Pro, that is where we create some of the beautiful avatars and signatures, it sure helps when you can create and animate to make something beautiful... If you are interested let us know...

[LindaNY]

Oh Sunbeam we are all here for you when ever you feel the need to vent.
Talking about all of it with others is the best way to get a handle on it.

((((hugs)))) You are not alone.

[the bear]

Sunbeam; Most of the replies come from women. Only Larry and I speak from the male side. Women seem to communicate their feeling and build up a network of friends to help them get through the rough times. Men seem to suffer in silence and are close mouthed about things that really bother them.
You mention a heck of a lot of problems that you have had, and you have had more than your fair share, but, that being said, none of us has reached our ripe old ages without some trials and tribulations.
I do not want to go into my personal details here but would be glad to let you know privately by e-mail or by PM here, your choice. I also know that just by opening up and venting you have taken a major step in the recovery from the depths of depression. Depression just like COPD is selom discussed and people just assume they have to bear the cross alone. Not true. Whenever you have to carry a heavy load it is so much better to share it.
All I can do is to encourage you to carry on, you are a survivor and remember you are TON ENOLA. Read backwards is not alone. Hugz, as ever, bear.